This will be my last entry in this blog.

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 Have you ever thought of the purpose of you being alive?

 After all the shits I went through lately,I stopped for a while and did some thinking.

 Why am I in this world??What is the purpose of me being alive??

 I don't know how many of you have thought about this matter.

 I realised that in my whole life,all I did was study,sit for exams,study again,sit for exams,study,exams,study,exams....The cycle repeat for I dont know how many hundredth times!!

 Seriously,I'm kind of sick with my life.Why the hell do I need to work so hard for exams?Why the hell do I need to do well in exams?What will I get from it in the end?Good job??Good pay??Big house??Big cars??Besides that,what else do I get??Can someone please answer me??

 Even if I got all the things I mentioned above,then what?What will happen??Is this the purpose of life?To achieve what you dream of??Achieve one dream after another??Will the dream ever end??Will I ever get the feeling of satisfaction??

 I can't believe that I would thought of such questions.Just that all of a sudden it pops up in my head.I dont know is it a good thing or a bad one for me to ponder about these.It definately has change my mind on something that I yet to decide.

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  IMPORTANT

Is the 1/3/07 already.The day has finally arrived.Please click here

 All I can say now:

 IS REALLY NOT MY YEAR AT ALL THIS YEAR!!!!!!!

Currently feeling: depressed,disappointed

 Is me or the holidays?

 Been trying to study and do some exercises for my calculus test which falls on this tuesday and hydraulics quiz somewhere this week and I cant do any of the exercises correctly!!

 I think my brain is starting to get rusty.I can't think properly since I came back from the CNY holiday.

 Since the beginning of the semester,there is something wrong with me already.I can't really memorise things well.It just couldnt get into my memory.I had to read and read and read I don't know for how many times only I can remember.Even after that,I'll forget again the moment I read something else.

 It is really frustrating.I'm getting worried.I just hope I can do well in both my quiz and test.

 Imagine,I already did badly for my Institusi-institusi Islam test,if I screwed up my hydraulics and calculus as well,it is going to leave a big impact on me.

 I just hope that everything this is going to be alright soon.My days are filled with bad luck these days.Sigh....

 I did kind of a short update yesterday but I accidentally deleted it when I was trying to edit it and I didnt bother to retype.

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 Today I went to 'pai nian' at my friends house. 

 5 friends to be specific.

 There is Kenny's,Allan's,Wei Siang's,Chee Pong's and last but not least Ah Chie's.

 Plus minus there is 10 of us who went today.Me,Li Xian,Chie,Chee Pong,Allan,Steven,Ho Inn,Yuen Kai,Wei Siang,and Chuin Hsiung who joined us later.Some fly us plane..

 Nothing much about 'pai nian' session la.

 Just did some normal stuff.Gambling,chit chatting,eating,have some drink(no beer,only shandy) and ya da ya da ya da..And Kenny's mum was really kind enough to prepare lunch for us.

 It took us almost 13 hours to complete all houses.

 I'm so tired but I want to continue watching a Hongkie series,Dicey Casino.Hehehe...

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 It is rather sad to see some my friends who stop blogging.Ok la not some la only 2 but it is really a disappointment for me.

 It is rather sad to see some my friends who stop blogging.Ok la not some la only 2 but it is really a disappointment for me.

 

 First it was Pui Yeen then now Yiling.Sigh..

 Blog is the place where I know how my friends are.Whether they are happy,sad,healthy,sick,where there are,what they did and so on.

 Stop blogging means I dont know nothing about them anymore.

 I don't usually keep in touch with my friends.Take Yiling as an example.I havent been seeing her for ages but I still want to know how she is.And Pui Yeen,she is so far from home.Mana la aku tahu macam mana keadaan dia kalau dia tak blog??

 I really do care about how my friends are.Even though I dont leave them messages or comments,I do care.Just that at times I dont know how to react to the situation that they are facing.

 I do hope that no one is telling me that they are not blogging anymore but if there is really no way you can continue blogging then I do respect your decision.

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 I'll be alone till tomorrow.Miss Grace will be coming back on Monday.I really enjoy having the whole room to myself.Lol.But well,2 is better than 1.Just that mayb is good that we get a break from each other at times.

 And I kena saman from the hostel's management.

 I did try to prevent the saman from coming but I failed.

 RM5 gone just because we didnt take the sanitary bin out from the room.I still think that I did take it out leh.Dont wanna argue with them la just pay la.watodo.There goes my 1 meal.Sigh

Countdown to 1/3/07:4 days

 I cant believe that i missed out all the fun my friends had in Ipoh!!!!Darn!!!I missed it every year!!!The gathering of friends,the laughters,the gossippings,the yum cha session,the 'pai nin' session..I cant believe I missed everything!!!

 As expected, CNY celebration in Muar was dull. My 5th uncle got a mild stroke few days before CNY. We stayed in his house so there arent any celebration. At the same time,we suspect that he is having an affair with some lady.So,the wife also not in the mood.Furthermore,my grandpa is not around for the first time. So, is really a different environment this year.

 Plus,I have to study for a test which I totally screwed up.It totally ruined my CNY mood. Argg...Forget bout it!!

 I wanted to blog more but I'm really not in the mood. Someone ruined my mood this morning plus I'm still a bit disturbed by the paper yesterday.So, I guess till next time then..

 Might be going for Norbit later.Depends on me mood again.And my atm account has only RM 46 and all my ang paus are with my mum.Pathertic isnt it.Sad sad sad..I think I'm being cursed..Things havent been going my way since CNY..Can someone help me break the curse???

Countdown to 1/3/2007: 6 days